So it’s been a long time since I’ve posted, but I thought that this was important to get off my chest, because I know no one reads this and I can be free and anonymous yet completely exposed.
I am a girl. I am crushing hard on a girl. I know she’s into girls. I can’t get her to look at me. I smile and wave and try so hard and nothing happens. There’s a party soon and I’m sleeping over at her house and I am such an anxious wreck I won’t be sleeping for a long time. Time goes so much faster when she’s around. I notice every tiny touch, every gentle breath, every strand of hair. I’ve every tone in her laugh, the way she walks, the way she smiles, the tiny line between her eyebrows when she frowns. She’s modest and interesting and deep and light all at once.
I try to get all the words and feelings out
But I’m trapped
Nervous
In my own crawling skin.
